Every moment, unique in its own. Life is beautiful.

Monday, December 13, 2010

A scar to remember

Our strongest muscle is the heart,

They beat with anticipation, fear and excitement,
They break with heartache,
They heal, learn and become guarded

Only to do it again and again,

A vicious cycle

Is the search for love.

Our scars remind us,
But don't let them stop us.

The bigger the fall,
The longer the rush!

Meet Tinkles! My first pet :) From my sister and mum. x

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Chapter 3:

At what point do we know
That risk has its reward?

At what point do we run for that edge?

My eyes can't lie,
They never could.

If you look, for those who take the time;

You'll see me wanting to run,
Run towards the edge,
Arms spread.

Feel the wind,
The rush,
The faith,
The reward.

Oh, how I crave to run!

Towards that edge,
Let me run, leap and fall!

Look into my eyes,
They do not lie.

Look, trust and believe.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Chapter 2: See the edge

Promise sits, waiting.

I've been gone too long, too scared to go near the edge
far too long.

My heart is healing, ready.

I see the edge,
You're waiting there, for me?

When I find out the answer, I'll step closer.

Til then, I dare not go near the edge,
at the risk of falling, alone.

Though, my heart races,
I have this feeling-
I'll be running, leaping, falling
into you.

It scares me how much I want to go near that edge.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Chapter 1:

Well if we never meet again
I know
You're out there.

What's the chances that there's only one of you?
I think God should share
People like you!

Monday, November 8, 2010

We never understand,
Never understand the beginning of the end.

What changed?

When did our hearts diverge?

You ask.

Isn't love the strongest bond?

Stronger than the strains of time and distance?

Your heart aches, but it aches with strength.

No one ever understands the end,

Until it has ended, unfortunately.

Your search for reason within
The chaos and clash of heart and mind,
Is a futile battle.

Ride the chaos,
Feel the turns,
Go up, down, turn upright, down and upright again.

No journey is complete
Without each step taken.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Call me Lady Macbeth...

Why is it that my body defines what you see me as?

Where is it stated that I am confined to your expectations?

I'm tired that in my journey to  become a stronger person
spiritually, mentally and physically, that stereotypes are thrust upon me with such slander.

Why is it that my breasts limit my capabilities, or my interests, or my attitude?

Why is it my gender is all people ever see, and therefore judgments of me are made accordingly?

I'm' tired of feeling torn between the simple things in life,
between what makes me feel like me, and what makes me feel who I should be.

Why do I feel like I need to justify the things I do, or the person I am?

Every week I am confronted with low expectations, stereotypes, and accommodating actions-
All because I am a female, and I wish that were an exaggeration!


Not for the purpose of not seeing the wound my keen knife makes,

But in the hope that you will see me for who I am,
Not what I am...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Snippits of this and that!

I've been gone too long,
I know.
Would you like to know why?
Or just hear I'm sorry?
Let me know.

Well here's a few vague separate verses to give you an idea of what's been happening.....

What is it that really matters?
So much, work, effort, time and money,
For the things I don't care about,
I just want to be happy, and this is not it.

I've given my light to another nameless face,
It's ok this time.
Not really. Is it ever?

I worry about you, so much.
Please don't leave me, us, this world.
You're ready to leave this world,
Ready to let go,
Don't leave, Don't leave, no.
Cos I'm hangin' on to you,
And I'm not ready to leave.

I've been waiting, for a long time.
I've been searching, for you.
And I would give it all up to see you, once more.

I want love like the movies,
I want to hear the music,
I want to feel my heart race,
I want that rush.
If this isn't what it's like,
Let's play pretend.
I'll close my eyes,
See what I want to see,
Hear what I want to hear.
Let's hope you're different,
I have a feeling you are.

Again, I'm sorry guys. I have just been too preoccupied, I will work my way back in though!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Pick a mood- Any mood!

It's been too long, I know, again... I'd say sorry, and I'd mean it, but would it make a difference?

I don't know how I feel these days,
Empty-yet my mind races.
Bored-yet a thousand things to do.
Lonely- yet talking to people everyday.
Whining- Yet I don't share it with anyone.
Lost- But I know exactly where I am.

I couldn't even make up my mind whether to write this as a poem, or simply say it straight out.

I still don't know what I want to say...
I want to curl up, hide under my blanket
and wait for the sun to come out.

I want someone to share things with-
I've worked on becoming strong,
I've preached about being independent- and practiced it too!

Now it's the waiting game............

Do I wait for Mr. Right?
Or settle for Mr. Safe?

I know what I deserve,
But will I ever get it?
Do these qualities really exist within a person?

I feel pathetic at times...

Perhaps where I live compensates for the people? lol

Tuesday, August 31, 2010


I see the light in you,
It begs for tomorrow
to never come.

Your body beats away,
And it begs
in silence
for tomorrow
to never come.

Your light shines,
Your soul speaks,
You're a puzzle that fits a piece
of me.

You beg for tomorrow,
to never come.

Don't leave me,
without you.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The pen is mightier than the sword!

Your ignorance astounds me!

For someone so strong headed and forthright,
You have no respect or appreciation for the power of words!

"Sticks and stones and all that bullshit"
No, it's more than that!

Bones will heal, scars will fade.

But words, oh words,

Look at what they have done in the past,

They have united and divided races,
They have dehumanised and destroyed,
Caused inhumane acts.

They have started wars,
And ended lives!

Be warned,
Words hold more power than any blow!!

You can jab an insult,
You can cross-punch racism,
You can upper-cut a life,
And finish with a degrading head kick
that knocks out a person will to go on.

I'd rather my bones broken,
Than to have my soul degraded.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Second chance...

In the surreal,
I learn what is real.

In the deciding moments,
I hear the clarity of my soul.

Heart racing,
Life sits on the balance of one foul swoop.

In the end,
It didn't come down to me,

I had no control,
No control of how my life will turn.

Say what you need to say,
Feel what you feel,
Love without fear,

Because those 'what if' moments,
really do happen...

(Sorry for being awfully slack with blogging, uni is taking over my life :( Sorry guys, I will get back to it, I promise, give me time! )

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Here's to wishing!!

Hopes, wishes and chances!

Twinkling in the sky like little stars!

I can see them!!

(Excuse the cheap advertising, but I have this pic on my fb page, and people check my blog too, can't let them steal my pics!! :p )

Friday, July 30, 2010

Request 2: Summer Adventure!

Gahh!! These requests are getting harder and harder!
I have been asked to post a story from an adventure from Summer, this has had me thinking soooo much! One, because, well It's winter here, Two, I get up to so much mischief that it all kinda blends in! haha!!

Well how about I give you a low-down (is that how it's said!?) of what my past Summer was like! So remember, this is around Christmas time for me...

Now, to put it all in context, I had just broken up with the Ex. A story to be told only if someone requests it, I don't need to retell it, but if someone needs to know it, then thats alright...

So, broken hearted, betrayed, rebellious, lost, living for the weekends of Summer, this is what I got upto....

I raised my standards, and I lowered them.

I gained sight of my values, and then would lose them.

I met many people,
Some who have stayed, some I've never heard from again.

One I saw from across the room, our eyes locked, we locked,
And we've been good friends ever since!

Another I met in unfavorable circumstances, which should have been the first sign, lol
 we had our many, many, ups and downs,
Let's just say, Karma did a scorpion kick to my head with that one (youtube scorpion kick!)

I had days of walking along the beach with a beautiful friend, taking photos, eating cheese and olives.
We'd walk by St. Marys Cathedral at night, drinking wine in the park!

I wrote, I drank, I hung with M. Jane and saw poetry come to life as I sat at the edge of the world!

I lived each moment, not one I would take back!

I danced the nights away,
As the Summer went on,
I discovered so much about myself.

I found myself again.

And although, there was no finding true love from another,
It wasn't what I needed,
What I needed was me!

My friends have been the greatest revelation for me,
Those who have shown me who they are,
Who I am,
They have shared with me moments I will cherish forever!

This probably wasn't what you were after, but to be honest, this is a rather poetic (but true) way of saying that I don't remember all the specifics, as it was half spent inebriated, BUT I will always remember it as the adventure to find myself again and the friendships that have blossomed over the Summer!

I know I've used this pic before, but I love it :)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

It only happens once!!

When I throw away the need for plans,
When I just appreciate what's around me,
Instead of what's not,

When I don't worry about the end of the year,
And what may or may not come,

When I accept that things might not go as hoped,
This is when life rewards me!


So many times I've tried to make things go right,

But when you accept that life is happening this way
For a reason,

It all seems to fall in place perfectly!

Better than planned, Because, well,
It's real, now, happening.

Instead of living life in your mind,
being hung up about what should be,

Look around, accept, and love!

LIVE in each moment of your life!!!
It only happens once   ;-)

hehehe, a pic I had to add text to for a subject at uni :) Makes me smile!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Request 1: Story about an Ex

A week or so ago I asked you all to leave a question, about anything you wanted to know bout me, my opinion or advice, whatever...
My first question I received was to tell a story about an ex..

This has had me thinking for a while!! What do I tell you?
Do I tell you only the good stuff? Or why they are an Ex?
Do I tell you I often remember the time we slow danced to 'Lady in Red' spontaneously in the dim light of his lounge-room, and it was at that point that he held me I knew I could spend the rest of my life with him?
Do I tell you that I gave him my heart, promised myself I wouldn't regret it, and found out I lied to myself?
Do I tell you that, after everything, I'd want to take it all back so I would never have to feel that pain again; Yet,
I am now stronger than I ever could have been without it.

Should I tell you what I have learnt of heartbreak instead?

Know your own heart before you share it!

Know what you deserve in life from yourself and others before you accept any cowboy's attention!

Know that your heart and soul can be so strong!

Understand that things happen for a reason, and although it may not make sense, they will!

Understand that time, takes time! Nothing heals instantly, this is your heart we're talking about!

Accept the emotions you go through! This is massive, the more  you deny or avoid what you're feeling, the longer it takes to get through it all, and you DO get through it!

Talk! Write, share, however, just vent what you need to say. It all helps! You may feel ridiculous or annoying to people, but you're not to those who care :)

Last of all, Let go!
Nothing good comes from holding onto negativity, or memories that hold you back. Karma is a wonderful thing, the more you are true to yourself, and have faith in the things you do for the good of yourself, the more you will be rewarded, just don't do things in expectation of Karma.

Life isn't a vending machine. You can't bribe it!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Find your way back from the rabbit hole!

To the person who has only ever shown kindness,

Life can get the better of us at times,
We can feel confused, hurt and conquered.

You must go heal yourself,
This is fair to understand.

Have tea with the mad hatter,
and flip the Queen a birdie!

For the ones that bring you down,
Off with THEIR heads!

Thank you,
for being the first of many friends on here.
For only ever showing kindness and compassion.

You are a beautiful soul.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Same Under the Sun's eyes...

Isn't it funny,

We divide,
ourselves from each other,


No matter how we're defined, or separated
by time and distance,

We all live under the same sun,

It rises, and it sets.

We all see it.

We all watch the very same sun,
The very same stars and moon!

You could be thousands of miles away,

And yet I know that what my eyes look upon now,
You will soon receive the same wondrous sight.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

get crackin' with the Q's!!

as you may have noticed I've been horribly slack with my posts lately,
this is due to a combination of things, the two major things is that 1. I am back to study, but most of all 2. I have nothing to write about!! :'(

So this is my idea....

I want you all to ask me one, or as many, questions as you like!
On anything,
my likes/dislikes, interests, facts I know about, opinions, stories, experiences, suggestions for, WHATEVER!!

Anything you've pondered on about me or things in life, I want to write about!!!

So go ahead and ask, nothing is too stupid, weird, boring or simple! :)

Give it a go, could be fun :)

Fact number 1.
This is NOT a real tattoo on me... I like to photoshop :P
But I would like a tattoo, of a phoenix and a wolf. I think I posted something about the significance of wolves. to me and how they represent me as a person. The phoenix is for the strength in me.

So, ask away!!! :) 

Monday, July 19, 2010


I feel as though I've witnessed the end,
Reached a high,
hit a wall,
and now it ends.


You were so strong,
you made me strong.

We were climbing together,
we were reaching the top,

But you wanted to fall,
It's the same pattern,

Isn't it!

You lifted me up,
No one else knew like you did,
No one else believed in me like you did!

Anger stirs through me,
Disappointment hangs in my eyes.

Why did you have to let go?


It's the end of your greatest era,
I may never know why
With your infamous wall.

I could scream, beg and argue,
I have learnt by now ,
That won't move a wall.

But know that,
although it saddens me, deeply,
I will stand by you

not in front of you, 
I have nothing to prove in that way,

not behind you, 
We both know that is not right,

Beside you,
Through sick and sin.

You are my friend.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Men of the world: SHARE!!!

So I've been talking to a friend of late,
Our queries are, as you might guess, about boys! Guys! Men! Males!
Whatever you want to call them....

I think it's due time that we get some answers!!
Not expecting to, but it would be great if we did!! For the sake of female sanity, spare your wisdom and guidance!


1. If a guy talks to you one day, and doesn't the next, is he interested?

2. If a guy is shy, does that stop him from showing that he likes you?

3. How does a shy guy show he likes you?

4. Is it possible, girls, that he isn't shy, he just doesn't like you? (Ever seen that movie "He's just not that into you" ?!!)

5.  Do you always go for looks over personality?! Does someone that is delicately pretty hold higher interest than someone who can talk and laugh with you?

Please, pass this on, let's see if we can get an array of insight!!! hahaha...

Study has started back today, and I am bored, once again :-P

Friday, July 9, 2010


Guess what!! last week my dad was coming down as you know on the weekend, I sent out a msg to some friends to come out to the pub with me for some bday drinks.... they were all being quiet and not enthused or anything, i thought, ok it's only my birthday...

my dad gets down, acts like he totally forgot it was my birthday the following week, which is totally beleivable for him!! he forgets our names half the time!! plus I hadn't really heard from any of my friends... then dad decided he wanted to go to dinner, i thought my sis, her bf, and mum would be coming too... but no, they didn't want to.... I was feeling rather unloved and deflated by this point!!

I go  to get ready, i get out, dad says he hasnt even showered yet.. then my sis tells me they're are now coming! So i have to wait for her to get ready.... then she has to dry her hair, then she wants to borrow shoes, then her bf needs to straighten his hair.... my sis is still looking for shoes pulling my cupboard apart.... i started getting really, really impatient.....

Then all of a sudden mum calls me out to the house, says she needs my help with something..... we're standing in the lounge room, and i'm like, "what?" then she says, "ok, come out!"

and who comes walking down the hallway and opens the door? my best friend of 20 years, and my friend who was going overseas and i couldn't make her farewell!!!! when she appeared in the hallway, I screamed soooo loud!! jumped  up and down and hugged her for ages!! then i started to cry, and called them all moles!! hahahaha
She had made the three hour drive from sydney just to come down for the night!!! 
Turns out I was having a surprise birthday and ALL my friends knew!!! My sister had organised it!! one by one they all showed up.... it was such a nice night!!

I couldn't believe it! it took me a while to adjust haha, turns out we weren't going out at all! 

Hahaha, we were playing a game called kings....
you have an empty glass in the middle, and a deck of cards face down surrounding it... ppl take turns getting a card, you write the rules on a piece of paper..
Then each number has a rule, you can make these up...
Kings is always "Drink the concoction in the middle glass"
One of the cards has to involve everyone adding their drink to the center glass... such as, "Ace= add your drink to the glass" or one of the cards can be a 'rule card' where you can make up any rule you want I did one that was 'when i say scarecrow everyone has to add their drink, the last one to do it has to scull the drink...... as you can see, i lost my own rule!!!

other ones can be,
thumbs= at any time the person who pulled the card can put their thumb on the table, the last person to do the same has to scull their drink.
Bar bitch= person who gets this has to get everyones drink when they run out.
fingers= you can have a few of these, for card number 2,3 or 4, they have to drink that amount of fingers width of their drink...
rule card= you can make up any rule you like with any consequence you like!
Truth or dare= you can pick someone to do this, if they dont, they scull their drink

be as creative as you like!!

Intoxication is guaranteed!! ;) 


Thursday, July 1, 2010

Let's hope...!!

I get scared,
I'll admit it.

The way I picture life the way it should be ,

Is when sun rays gleam through the trees,
When the clouds float against a clear blue sky.

With a white summer dress,
and a plaited headband.

Roaming through high grass,
Searching for my lover.

My hair kissed by the sun,
my skin wrapped in its golden warmth.

Even if it won't look like this,
It will feel like that, wherever I am.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Some painted over advice ;)

I know most of you, I would think so, have heard these lyrics, at least once!
It's a lil funny, but oh so true!!
I think it would really pay to read over them, take the time to ask yourself:

 "Do I already do this, or do I need to start?"

Yes, these are lyrics!

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are NOT as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. 

Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. 

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen. 

How true these lyrics are!!!

Love to you all people!

A pic I took of my sister today! More pics are on my website :)

Monday, June 28, 2010

Inspirational 'Funk' !!

Hello lovely people!!

Ok so, I've never really knew what 'In a funk' meant until I watched the episode of Glee (Yes, I watch Glee, give me a break! I'm a performer remember!!)
I don't get why the American term describes being in a rut, when the term for music is so fun and boppy!

Anyway! moving on... I have been in a little bit of an 'inspirational funk' lately in regards to writing on this blog...

Not sure why, I have just lost what to write about, and  what you'll be interested in! lol

There's been less poems, mainly because I'm avoiding the drama around me!, haha, and also I'm rather content with life these days!

It's my birthday soon, urgh... I'm going to start denying my age when I go out, or just cleverly omit it from the conversation! I go to a place where the newby 18 year olds like to adventure, urgh.... don't judge, this town is small, and no where else to go!

Also, my friend is going to Europe, by herself, the day before my B'day :(
I am so upset, more that I was meant to go to her farewell, but family are coming down to see me... I hope I get to see her before she leaves, I'm going to miss her so much!

Aww, I am listening to the Romeo and Juliet Soundtrack for the first time, 'Kissing you' Des'ree
Oh, my heart aches when I listen to this song.... I love it so much!

I believe in love so much, a perfect love, that I'm scared I'll never experience anything quite like it....

Well, that's enough of me for now!!

Hope I haven't bored you too much ;)

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Spontaneous adventure!

I went on a spontaneous adventure the other day with my friend who I have known for 20 years now!! which is like, 95% of my life!!

We went out to the haunted lighthouse that sits at the point of the bay we live in, and oh it was gorgeous!! Definitely going back!

There were signs like this everywhere and along the trail!... Feel secure much?!

This is the old light house, in ruins... Just about anyone that looked after the lighthouse, including their family died, a lot of the cases in my opinion was due to severe stupidity (such as pushing bolders off the cliff, and happen to lose your footing! der!!) 

This is the view of the lighthouse as you walk up the trail, I love the crunchy sound my feet make on the path :)

This is the view from the lighthouse, on the second cliff back is another lighthouse that I have photos of on here somewhere too I'm pretty sure... I love the ocean!

A bit of a drive down the road and we are right where the waves crash against the rocks, dangerous but soo cool!!

I love capturing things in mid action!

I almost stepped on this crab! I don't blame it for trying to attack me with its one claw!!

This was along the trail to get to the waves, soo calming :)

I have more photos that I've edited and posted on my photography website for sale, have a squiz, not to buy of course, I just really like the pics :)

I don't usually do the whole touristy site seeing thing, but so glad I did!!! 

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I didn't see his gaze...

I'm a nice girl.
I'm a strong woman.

I trust,
Maybe too much for my own good.

I will believe your words,
You can steal my kiss.

It's all nice,
Until he comes along.

It could've worked,
It could've been nice.

But you had to steal my kiss,
And let him see.

While staring into your gaze,
I didn't see his.

He stared from across the room,
But I couldn't see.

It's too late.

So to him I say,
I'm sorry you saw,

I'm sorry I didn't.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

On a lighter note!

I had to get the previous post out of my system,
Now that that is done.... I wanted to share the latest pics that I have taken and edited!

Let me know what you think, I'm quite chuffed!! lol

Too deep...

I am sitting in the silence,
Surrounded by an electric humming.

The tap of my fingers on the keys
split the air.

Deep thoughts on life run through my mind,
Too deep for this late at night.

Too much,
For me to sort through them.

I look at the pictures I have taken on my wall,
I am happy.
I am content.

I am constantly being faced with lives being taken,
both fiction, and on the news.

What compels someone to cause the last breath
of another soul?

Too deep.

I look back to the sunsets I have captured and taped to my wall,
I try to detach,
Don't think.

It's late.

I'm sorry.

Monday, June 21, 2010

What are the causes of suffering?

What are the causes of suffering?

First, one understands that he causes much of his own suffering.

Secondly, he looks for the reasons of this in his own life,
To look is to have confidence in ones own ability to end the suffering.

Finally, a wish arises to find the path to peace.

For all beings desire happiness, all wish to find their purer selves.

=From the film "Kundun"-

Saturday, June 19, 2010

I'm learning....

I'm learning to be:

The woman you'll never have to worry about.

The one to let go if you aren't holding on.

A believer in love again, but not just for anyone.

The rock that faces the waves,
crashing down on my beliefs.

Me again.

(Just f*cking around with friends! hehehe)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Funny thing about love...

The funny thing about love,

The more we experience it,
the more we guard ourselves from it.
Just in case.

The more we let ourselves be vulnerable,
the more our hearts race in fear and excitement.
The thrill of the risk.

Love, like a double edged sword,
Which end will cut you?

You'll never know for certain.

The more we learn of its power,
we also come to learn the pain of it breaking.
Who would want to go through that over and over again?

Our hearts, like scars,
becoming thicker, guarded by a wall.

Sooner or later,
the pain subsides and we remember the joy.
We miss that feeling,
And the risk is worth it again.

Take that leap of faith!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Bit of everything!! Including shameless plug :P

Hi guys!!

Sorry it's been so long!! :(

I've had a crazy week! Non-stop and just haven't had a clear enough mind to write! *Sigh*

Anyway, what have I been upto you ask?

Well, I went on my trip to QLD, wiped boogers, changed nappies, and played chasey's! It was awesome! I'd give up a night out to do that any day :D

I've finally launched my website for photography!! You can check it out on www.perkphotography.webs.com
And I also have a fan page on facebook called Perk Photography

I have also been trying to organise buying another car bombs are great, but it's time to move on!! lol

I will be back shortly to post some more :D

This is a picture I took on my trip, on Magnetic Island, oh em gee!!! It is amazing there!! I know where I want to move!
It's like this small Island that is so cruisey and laid back filled with lil beach shacks, yes it costs a fortune and is riddled with tourists, but oh, sooo awesome!

See you soon!!!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

I'm back!!!

Hey guys,
just a quickie to let you know that I have had my trip, my time off, my rejuvenation,

Feeling great, and life is looking good!! :)

I will post some pics very soon,
Just organising myself, lots on the plate of life at the moment!!

Talk soon!!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

I finally did it!

Helloooo my lovely people!!

Sorry it has been a few days since I've written to you all,
I have been working up the courage to start up my little 'business' (For lack of a better term!)
I have started up a little photography service!
I even spent the day developing a website! D:

It's possible that it may fall flat on its ass and I will get hardly any business, but hey, it's worth a try!!

I have actually booked my first gig! It's for a friends niece's first birthday, I was so worried about how much to charge! :S I must get more confident within myself, that's for sure!

Well, this is the site, I'm still working on it and adding more images,

Let me know what you think!!

I might not be able to post much in the next week  as I'm going to Queensland to see my beautiful little niece and nephew for their second birthday!! :D can't wait!!!

This is a pic I took of my sister.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Lights, camera....BAM!

I was bored last night, and deliriously tired.... So I made my lougneroom into a mini 'studio' if you can call it that (a wall, tripod and desk lamp! lol) And decided to take some 'theme' shots! This theme, I don't know what to call it.... You decide!
It's for something I want to put together, just trying some things out!

Friday, May 21, 2010


It's almost midnight here, can't seem to sleep...
So I thought I'd share something I put together :)
My sister in law will be drawing one of the pics that was taken, so when she does I'll share the link. She does such amazing pictures, wish she knew this!! She actually sells post card size drawings on ebay, oh em gee she is good!
Anyway, night y'all! ;)

EMA:415 Visual arts assignment

NOTE: To my normal bloggers, this is a a part of an assignment for the marker to read. It is being posted here and submitted for marking at the start of June. You don't have to read if you don't want to lol
Posted 21/05/2010

Student number: 11410571

The following are attempts at a range of visual art mediums, including photography, drawing, painting, digital art and sculpture. These works are my own and attempt at developing different artistic skills that are set out in the NSW K-6 Creative arts Syllabus (2006).

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Board of Studies, (2006) NSW K-6 Creative arts Syllabus, Australia: Board of Studies

These three shots focus on perspective. The first is an upward shot St. Mary's Cathedral, the effect this angle has is to emphasise the size and grandeur of the building. The next shot is of my niece looking up. I was standing on the garden wall to take the picture, it produced the effect of putting her out of proportion and creating focus on her face. This sort of shot creates an overpowering effect. The last shot is of a pair of shoes, the point of this shot was to see an object from a perspective that it would not normally be seen from by the human eye. Getting down low to the ground to take the shot put a new perspective on the inanimate object.
Photography can be integrated into the creative arts strand to develop students eye for composition, line, perspective and much more.

This image is an attempt of a drawing from a movie title. I must say my drawing skills have decreased from lack of practice over the years, but my attempt was to achieve shading through line, and composition. I have a great tendency for not getting proportion correct, no matter what strategy I use. For this image I used lines on the actual image to get the angle of the eyeline, bridge of the nose and then expanded it from there.
Strategies such as that can be used for beginning drawers that find it difficult to know where to start from, or how to get the image in proportion. It can involve learning any amount of skills that are included in the curriculum such as sketching, shading, perspective, line, contrast, composition, proportion and much more.

For painting I wanted to do something that could incorporate colour, shape, space, line and composition. I decided to work with circles of varying sizes, I overlapped them, this created spaces within each overlap. I used a compass to draw the various sized circles. Then with a range of colours painted in each open space created. It was difficult to use a set amount of colours to fill in each space without them being next to each other. It started to feel like a colouring in version of Sudoku! 
This sort of activity could be incorporated into maths activities within a unit about shapes. If the rules were to use a set amount of colours, how much could they fill it in before two adjacent spaces would have to be the same colour? I didn't realise that it actually required some logical thinking, I knew I wanted the colours to be random and not touching, but had not thought it would be difficult until I got half way through it!

Digital Art:
Digital at provides such a range of possibilities and it can be open for all ages and abilities. Simple editing skills can be taught to children that will allow them to create a variety of expressive pieces for different purposes and contexts.With this image I used Photoshop Elements 7.0 a photo editing program. Some of the tools I used to create this included, Layering, Opacity, Brush, Paste, Copy, Gradient, Contrast, Brightness and Stretch .The theme I wanted to go for was 'nightmare', I had to reflect on what elements create a dark and gloomy atmosphere as well as an image that would be 'scary'. The current vampire craze was an instant idea. The image is of me, that I spliced in half and copied then flipped the image. This distorted the image somewhat, I then added fangs with the blurring tool. The clouds and trees gave it a Bram Stoker's "Dracula" look to it, reminiscent of a dream. 
Students can use photo editing programs to develop their computer literacy skills, creativity and critical reflective skills for a range of purposes. The possibilities are endless.

Stoker, B. (1897) Dracula, Re-published in 1994, United Kingdom: Puffin Classics

For sculpture I made play-dough as I didn't have access to clay. The medium itself made an impact on how I could sculpt the different pieces. Usually with clay I could have created more texture and have the objects standing up; But with play-dough I had trouble making the whale's tale stand up, and creating the texture of cat's fur. I used tools such as a knife and fork. The knife was to carve wrinkles, eyes and mouth, and also to blend in the the dough to create a smooth effect. I used the fork to create the texture on the starfish by poking it, and the fur on the cat by tapping it with the prongs of the fork. To hold the tale up on the whale I used a bread clip as a prop. Most of the pieces were created by starting off with a base shape, and then adding each limb or section to it. The face was the most difficult, but I really wanted to try it. Adding cheeks, nose, brows and chin it was hard to get them in proportion, but I wasn't worried, as it made the face look more daunting. I did enjoy creating the wrinkles with the knife.
Sculpture can be used in a variety of curriculum studies such as Maths for 3D objects, English for character creation, science for model making and in HSIE for diorama's.