Pick a mood- Any mood!

It's been too long, I know, again... I'd say sorry, and I'd mean it, but would it make a difference?

I don't know how I feel these days,
Empty-yet my mind races.
Bored-yet a thousand things to do.
Lonely- yet talking to people everyday.
Whining- Yet I don't share it with anyone.
Lost- But I know exactly where I am.

I couldn't even make up my mind whether to write this as a poem, or simply say it straight out.

I still don't know what I want to say...
I want to curl up, hide under my blanket
and wait for the sun to come out.

I want someone to share things with-
I've worked on becoming strong,
I've preached about being independent- and practiced it too!

Now it's the waiting game............

Do I wait for Mr. Right?
Or settle for Mr. Safe?

I know what I deserve,
But will I ever get it?
Do these qualities really exist within a person?

I feel pathetic at times...

Perhaps where I live compensates for the people? lol