Procrastinating.....

I've noticed that I don't like things coming to an end, even boring things that need to be done...

I have been slaving away non-stop every week day trying to get assignments done early so I am stress free when I go see my family in QLD....

I'm on my second last assignment to be finished, I'd say I have about 200 words to go... And it would be so easy to finish....

Yet... where am I?.... on facebook, hotmail, making a coffee, chatting, blogging!!!

ridiculous.

I do this EVERY TIME!!!

It's like, as soon as I am about to finish and move on, I just stop being productive!!
gahhh!!

I always find a reason not to just finish something straight up.....
hmmm....

Giving out my first award! :D

So,
I have decided to make an award!
I wanted to get to know you a bit more,
or just be amused,
either way, I'm set.

Here are your options! (Be adventurous, it's not about embarrassment, just fun!)

1. Set up your camera on self timer (3 or 5 secs will be fine), hit the button and RUN in front of the camera view and try and get as far as you can before the shot is taken! Post it!! I'm sure your behind isn't as bad as you think! haha

2. In a conversation with someone work in the word "Woof" randomly, see how many times you can say it (With a straight face helps)... Post your score, and share their reaction!! example "Hey, woof you pass me the salt please?"... "I'll pick woof up in ten minutes, see you then!"

3. Before you go to hand something to someone, raise it to your nose for a second (As though you're sniffing it), and then hand it over casually as though nothing happened. The more mundane the object, the better the reaction you'll get! Such as a cd, money, phone..... Record the facial expression you receive in detail!! It's hilarious, trust me!

4. List 5 jokes that actually made you laugh out loud! REAL LOL's!! 

5. Find a location, anywhere, room, backyard, bathroom, holding your camera spin around in a circle, press the shutter randomly, tell us all about what's in the picture (whatever it is!!!)! Doesn't matter if it's blurry, you'll clear things up! ;-)


Hehehe, can't wait for the results, remember, it's all for a bit of fun, give it a whack, you never know!
Don't worry, you're still cool ;-)

Here are the lucky people!!!

John !

Christiejolu !

Alice !

Tywo !

Then pass it on to whoever you want to do this too and see how you'll be amused! :-) Here's your award! YES! It's my shoes!! hahahaa

Sinking Reality!

I'm surrounded by silence,

But the thought of you beats loudly in my body.

My head is drowning in the weight

of thoughts.

My chest is sinking

with emptiness.

My fingers can touch

Nothing but air. 

My eyes dull as they look

at the empty space.

I stop.

I wait, and wait,

and watch,

and wait.

You're not coming,

You're not looking.

My stomach swirls 

In the tidal wave of reality.

Today is not a day of sense....

Some one liners I haven't been able to make anything more from,
But they keep running through my head,
So maybe I should just say them all and they won't bug me anymore....


Loving you is like holding onto a rag doll
falling apart at the seams.

Grasping so tight to air
That isn't mine to hold.

I need a different place, with
different faces, or
An old face
In a new place.

I can't deal with drama so well these days.
I feel like I'm being a horrible friend of late.

I could've sworn I finished High School.....

Most of the lines aren't related, though some are.
Today is not a day of sense, is all I can say...

I had a dream..!!

So last night I had a dream that I had found not one, but TWO four leaf clovers!
One thing that stood out was that the stem on one was longer than the other.

So I went out to my yard trying my luck!

No such luck....

But, being a believer of dreams and how they help to define for us what's going on in our life, or within our soul, I had a quick look of what the significance of a four leaf clover was....

This is what I found-
So the number four represents

Wholeness; the completely integrated human psyche.

wholeness; according to Jung there are four functions of consciousness; thinking, feeling, intuitiveness and sensation. The goal is to incorporate all into your waking life (you will always be inclined to one function as your lead). There are also the four corners of the earth

Four in a dream is a positive symbol. The four represents immense inner strength, energy, vitality and a great love for and connection with nature. Four analyses and organizes, the four is where the change in the human personality takes place.

The four leaf clover:

A four leaf clover symbolizes a complete, balanced self, contentment about your life. You have successfully come to a resolution of some problem. A three leaf clover represents past, present, and future.

I can't say how much this surprised me!

I have been working on becoming the person I always knew I was. I got lost for a while, and was given a second chance to be ME, and no one else.

It's what I keep in mind everyday and try to practice. I really do mean it whenever I write

 "Stay True, Keep Strong"

I am becoming content with who I am as a person, I feel strong with who I am. I have resolved some things in my life, some doubts, some people and some circumstances that made me question what the hell I'm doing!

I didn't think I had yet fully accomplished what I set out to do, but I do believe I am at a better balance within myself.

I fully believe in Karma, and a conversation with someone who was a part of the circumstance I had the other day, has helped me to feel that I can actually be strong enough, get the respect I deserve and move on!

Karma and I are now at evens again. I've paid my dues, suffered my consequences for the things I've done. And I am now ready to only be true, to myself and others!!

Moomy!!

My mother, aka "Moomy!" (Mooo-Mee)

She is the pillar of strength,
When others can go no further.

She stands,
When we fall.

She protects,
When we're scared.

She guides,
When we're lost.

She speaks truth,
When we're confused.

She forgives,
 When we're sorry.

She gives her all,
When we have nothing.

Her love is strong,
Her heart is true.

I am who I am,
My values and my strength,
Are owed to this woman.

Beauty in the Tragedy

It is with another's loss,
That we say thanks for our own fortunes.

Secretly grateful.

With one life lost,
Many will cling to their blessings.

Spirituality is brought out and dusted off.

Within one tragic moment of time,
A community is brought together.

Ashamedly "This is what it takes" they will think.

One loss,
And walls of difference brought down.

No status, colour or history for this moment of grief.

Our masks of society,
Taken down to pay respects.

Vulnerability risks being seen.

With each life lost,
We look at that road with more mournful thoughts.

The tragic beauty one split moment can bring.