Love scar

I know the feeling,
Everyone is talking
except the one you want to hear from.

I know the feeling,
Life's busy, full
But empty without them.

I know the saying's old, used up
But time heals all wounds,
It's sad to think love as a wound,

But we all leave a mark.

Torn!

This is the dilemma I face;  Adele, you speak my heart too well.


Have you ever wanted to let go of all doubts and fears,
To love whole heartedly again?


You've been on my mind, 
I grow fonder every day, 
Lose myself in time, 
Just thinking of your face, 
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go, 
You're the only one that I want, 

I don't know why I'm scared, 
I've been here before, 
Every feeling, every word, 
I've imagined it all, 
You'll never know if you never try, 
To forgive your past and simply be mine, 

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only, 
Promise I'm worth it, 
To hold in your arms, 
So come on and give me a chance, 
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile, 
Until the end starts, 

If I've been on your mind, 
You hang on every word I say, 
Lose yourself in time, 
At the mention of my name, 
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close, 
And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go? 

I don't know why I'm scared, 
'Cause I've been here before, 
Every feeling, every word, 
I've imagined it all, 
You'll never know if you never try, 
To forgive your past and simply be mine

It's time!

Take the armor off, 

rest your weary sword,

It's time to love again.

It's time to love again!

Life is Sweet

Life these days
Is a sweet melody,
Hands running through long grass,
The sun, lining everything with a golden light.


Life is sweet, 
Life is strong!

Life is beautiful

Hold my hand,
Life is beautiful!

Spin with your hands in the air,
bring your head up to the sky!

Life is beautiful!

Feel the serenity,
golden on your skin.

Life wraps around you,
runs through you,
blesses you!

The wind through the trees,
Dance to its rhythm!

Life is beautiful,
in all its intricate simplicity!

God, if you can read this, please..

I've come home from training,
It's been 40 degrees celcius, all day.

I'm exhausted and dehydrated.

The cyclone Isa has been making way,
It promises to hit very soon.

My brother is driving 14hrs to be with his family,
To protect them.

I can just feel the urgency in his soul as he drives through the night,
Driving as I write this,
To his family.

His heart pounding, determined; I'm certain.

Driving as Isa draws near,
ready to bring her rage and destruction,
And leave while a sorrowful silence lingers in her aftermath.

And what am I doing?

Sitting.

Thousands of kilometers away.

Powerless.

All I can do,
Is pray.

Let them know I love them.

God, please

Watch over everyone,
Their beautiful souls.

Please, let the courage and strength of our people
 Win the battle against Mother Nature,
This one time.

Do you think it's possible?

I feel like a child,

eager and excited to be told that everything I believe in is real,

clinging on to hope with bewildering eyes.

Is it possible, do you think?

Do you believe that true love is found at first glance? 

At first sight?

I was sitting at a table,

Of middle aged people,

grown into their lives.

Two speak of how they met their partner.

The man spoke of his wife, 

And as they stood at the altar, she looked at him and said "I always knew I was going to marry you. I was told, I will fall in love with and marry a man in uniform."

The woman said "And as I saw him walk past, I told the girls 'See that man? He's mine!' I knew I was going to marry him right there and then."

Do you think this is the way it's meant to be with everyone?

The relationships that last,

 Are the ones sparked by an instant knowing?

Or are these people the exception to the rule?

Are we meant to wait all our lives for that small chance we'll receive that same fate? 

Run into our soul mate and just know?

In silence the truth speaks...

In absence
Silence fuels the paranoia.

This can be deadly to fate,

But,

If silence persists,
And you listen

You come to learn
That your fearful thoughts

Were in the end,

The hurtful reality
You dared not face.

In avoidance
You continued to linger

In deceitful hope.

Life crossroad...

What do you do...

Two paths,

The one you long to travel,
It appears to be everything you imagined,
it teases you with its perfection.

the one you try to forge ahead...
But it won't let you in.

Its path is darkened with uncertainty,
yet the heart is filled with desire, so much desire.

Then, as desperation sets in place of hope
to travel that path,
Another opens.

The same, yet just not the same;
You can tell.

It calls for you,
You can see its path,
And where it will lead you,
Exactly where you wanted,
It's just not the same path, is all.


To travel the path of uncertain fate,
Or to travel a path clear with certainty and contentment?

A scar to remember

Our strongest muscle is the heart,

They beat with anticipation, fear and excitement,

They break with heartache,

They heal, learn and become guarded

Only to do it again and again,

A vicious cycle

Is the search for love.

Our scars remind us,

But don't let them stop us.

The bigger the fall,

The longer the rush!

Meet Tinkles! My first pet :) From my sister and mum. x

Chapter 3:

At what point do we know
That risk has its reward?

At what point do we run for that edge?

My eyes can't lie,
They never could.

If you look, for those who take the time;

You'll see me wanting to run,
Run towards the edge,
Leap,
Arms spread.

Feel the wind,
The rush,
The faith,
The reward.

Oh, how I crave to run!

Towards that edge,
Let me run, leap and fall!

Look into my eyes,
They do not lie.

Look, trust and believe.

Chapter 2: See the edge

Promise sits, waiting.

I've been gone too long, too scared to go near the edge
far too long.

My heart is healing, ready.

I see the edge,
You're waiting there, for me?

When I find out the answer, I'll step closer.

Til then, I dare not go near the edge,
at the risk of falling, alone.

Though, my heart races,
I have this feeling-
I'll be running, leaping, falling
into you.

It scares me how much I want to go near that edge.

Chapter 1:

Well if we never meet again
I know
You're out there.

What's the chances that there's only one of you?
I think God should share
People like you!

We never understand,
Never understand the beginning of the end.

What changed?

When did our hearts diverge?

You ask.

Isn't love the strongest bond?

Stronger than the strains of time and distance?

Your heart aches, but it aches with strength.

No one ever understands the end,

Until it has ended, unfortunately.

Your search for reason within
The chaos and clash of heart and mind,
Is a futile battle.

Ride the chaos,
Feel the turns,
Go up, down, turn upright, down and upright again.

No journey is complete
Without each step taken.

Call me Lady Macbeth...

Why is it that my body defines what you see me as?

Where is it stated that I am confined to your expectations?

I'm tired that in my journey to  become a stronger person
spiritually, mentally and physically, that stereotypes are thrust upon me with such slander.

Why is it that my breasts limit my capabilities, or my interests, or my attitude?

Why is it my gender is all people ever see, and therefore judgments of me are made accordingly?

I'm' tired of feeling torn between the simple things in life,
between what makes me feel like me, and what makes me feel who I should be.

Why do I feel like I need to justify the things I do, or the person I am?

Every week I am confronted with low expectations, stereotypes, and accommodating actions-
All because I am a female, and I wish that were an exaggeration!

UNSEX ME HERE!

Not for the purpose of not seeing the wound my keen knife makes,

But in the hope that you will see me for who I am,
Not what I am...

Snippits of this and that!

I've been gone too long,
I know.
Would you like to know why?
Or just hear I'm sorry?
Let me know.

Well here's a few vague separate verses to give you an idea of what's been happening.....

What is it that really matters?
So much, work, effort, time and money,
For the things I don't care about,
I just want to be happy, and this is not it.


I've given my light to another nameless face,
It's ok this time.
Not really. Is it ever?


I worry about you, so much.
Please don't leave me, us, this world.
You're ready to leave this world,
Ready to let go,
Don't leave, Don't leave, no.
Cos I'm hangin' on to you,
And I'm not ready to leave.


I've been waiting, for a long time.
I've been searching, for you.
And I would give it all up to see you, once more.

I want love like the movies,
I want to hear the music,
I want to feel my heart race,
I want that rush.
If this isn't what it's like,
Let's play pretend.
I'll close my eyes,
See what I want to see,
Hear what I want to hear.
But,
Let's hope you're different,
I have a feeling you are.

Again, I'm sorry guys. I have just been too preoccupied, I will work my way back in though!

Pick a mood- Any mood!

It's been too long, I know, again... I'd say sorry, and I'd mean it, but would it make a difference?

I don't know how I feel these days,
Empty-yet my mind races.
Bored-yet a thousand things to do.
Lonely- yet talking to people everyday.
Whining- Yet I don't share it with anyone.
Lost- But I know exactly where I am.

I couldn't even make up my mind whether to write this as a poem, or simply say it straight out.

I still don't know what I want to say...
I want to curl up, hide under my blanket
and wait for the sun to come out.

I want someone to share things with-
I've worked on becoming strong,
I've preached about being independent- and practiced it too!

Now it's the waiting game............

Do I wait for Mr. Right?
Or settle for Mr. Safe?

I know what I deserve,
But will I ever get it?
Do these qualities really exist within a person?

I feel pathetic at times...

Perhaps where I live compensates for the people? lol

Please,

I see the light in you,
It begs for tomorrow
to never come.

Your body beats away,
And it begs
in silence
for tomorrow
to never come.

Your light shines,
Your soul speaks,
You're a puzzle that fits a piece
of me.

You beg for tomorrow,
to never come.

Don't leave me,
here,
without you.

The pen is mightier than the sword!

Your ignorance astounds me!

For someone so strong headed and forthright,
You have no respect or appreciation for the power of words!

"Sticks and stones and all that bullshit"
No, it's more than that!

Bones will heal, scars will fade.

But words, oh words,

Look at what they have done in the past,

They have united and divided races,
They have dehumanised and destroyed,
Caused inhumane acts.

They have started wars,
And ended lives!

Be warned,
Words hold more power than any blow!!

You can jab an insult,
You can cross-punch racism,
You can upper-cut a life,
And finish with a degrading head kick
that knocks out a person will to go on.

I'd rather my bones broken,
Than to have my soul degraded.

Second chance...

In the surreal,
I learn what is real.

In the deciding moments,
I hear the clarity of my soul.

Heart racing,
Life sits on the balance of one foul swoop.

In the end,
It didn't come down to me,

I had no control,
No control of how my life will turn.

Say what you need to say,
Feel what you feel,
Love without fear,

Because those 'what if' moments,
really do happen...

(Sorry for being awfully slack with blogging, uni is taking over my life :( Sorry guys, I will get back to it, I promise, give me time! )